Self-Deception

Imagine a student. A sixteen year-old high school student. He is very lazy, so irresponsible. He never studies. He barely goes to school. Even when he goes to school, he prefers to spend his time "around" it, rather than attending the class. He smiles a lot. He is a beautiful kid, you should see him smiling. He can persuade anyone with his smile. And the way he talks... Irresistable. He is very attractive by the way. There are many girls around him. But he already has a lover, so they don't have any chance! He knows everyone in the school, talks to everyone. There is nobody being averse to him.

He was one of my good friends when I was in high school. We knew each other since the first year of high school. I loved talking to him. After classes, he was walking with me to the bus stop, and we were talking and talking. One day I asked him "hey, you are such a lazy boy, what are you going to do after high school?" We were walking and he looked at my face with his beautiful smile. He said "oh, no worry! I already thought about it many years ago!" I asked "what is it that you thought about?" Then, he said "that I will go to a sport academy. I am lazy, that's true. But I do not have to study. I just need to pass the threshold in the university entrance exam. You should be stupid if you fail to pass this threshold!" He was right. To pass the threshold, he only needed to answer a few math, a few geography, history and turkish language questions correctly. He was an athletic person. He could play football very well. He was running so fast that nobody could catch him without other tricks but simply by running behind him. He never smoked. He always warned me that I should not smoke. Yes I was already a smoker at the high school. He was already aware of the fact that smoking would affect his career in the future.

And then? I am not going to tell more about him. It would be nothing but violation of his privacy! But why is this post titled as "self-deception"? Well, the answer is hidden in the rest of the story. But I have just realized while writing this that I should not talk about it.